CC:When I thought it's over

I am back!! I think I missed a lot of topic here but it's okey I am going to make the most of this topic and the next to come. The topic is really a nice one, I haven't totally thought that our relationship is over (speaking of married life) since we are only married seven years. But there is one event that happened few years back, I came back from the Philippines for a month vacation at that time. All my luggages where not even sorted out but since I had this bad jet lag I slept and slept all the time. After I think two days since I arrived here in MI, I   went to the computer and checked my emails and tinker my yahoo messenger, FB was not at it's peak at this time, yet. When I logged on the yahoo messenger it happened that my hubby's ym is on because when I was in the Philippines instead of him calling me I'll just checked him on my YM and leave messages, it goes pretty well. I was not snooping actually but it just so happened it was on, so I checked the archive and lo and behold, he is chatting to somebody else!!!! 

Did my heart skip a bit?? Girls, it didn't skipped a bit it jump like a salamagan!! I felt my horn started to rise and curl and my tail started to come out, and what else started to come out? My pangs!! I don't know but I was just fuming MAD, ridiculously MAD!! I read the chat log, and told myself to think of the big box to be opened minded and  etc!! To heck with all those graciousness, I just exploded and everything was unleashed!!

I immediately asked him what's all this chatting all about? I did copied the chat logs, in front of my hubby's face I showed him the paper, and he kept on telling me that their is nothing going on. He has this American friend who is the bf of this (pinay) woman ( he is chatting), and it so happened that he was online and she is online so they chatted. But I don't like that, I told my hubby since you became my bf then a husband I have never chatted to anybody anymore!

I don't know it just escalate, my anger was to the brim that all the things inside the house that I passed was broken. I was mad, wild like 10 wild horse!! I was in the dining room, shouting and yelling and crying, that I picked up one chair and throw at him!! Still he keep on following me until he cried, but when you are mad you don't see it, you think that it's a crocodile tears!! 

So I decided to left him, that time that moment. I saw my un-opened luggages I picked it up and told him to bring me to a hotel because I am going to leave him. He was so hesitant to do it but I told him if you are not going to do that something will happened here. So he got all my luggages and brought me to a hotel. I was inside the room still crying and crying, and when I looked out the window he was there at the parking lot. I told him to go home and leave me alone. I didn't know I doze off a little bit but the whole night I was crying until I decided to call my SIL and told her about what happened.

Of course, she was shocked and she asked me to pray with her and we did. The next day, I heard a knocked on the door and when I opened it, it was him!! Oh my gulay!! How I missed him so much, I didn't realized it until I saw him that morning. He asked me to come home and I did. Sometimes when I get moody or mad at him I reminded him of that time, which immediately I thought it's not a good idea, a past is the past,  so I just bit my lips and tame my tongue. We all love to have a good and smooth relationship so looking back and reminding of the bad things is not a good idea. I thought at that time it's over, thank God I listened to HIM. 

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